My mother

I'm writing this just for my mum, so I can thank her for all that she's done. My name is Darran and I'm her eldest son, who is also her favourite one. Me and you have seen and been through alot with each other, I lost my dad but not my mother, one in a million that's why I love her. Wot she dun for me my sister and brother makes her so much more special then an ordinary mother. The first year or two woz the hardest after dad died, i no that from the amount we cried. Donna and Thomas was to young to really remember much from that time, they was robbed of there memories and that was a crime. The first few years after he died was the years that I just cried and cried. Now I'm older and handle it better, but I'd give anything to hear from him, even a card or a letter.mum and  Dad we just want you to know that are love for you will never ever go.

A little piece of how I was feeling one day while I was staying away from class A drugs

Saturday 2nd April 2016 and I've had a bad day, not using woz easy yesterday but it's hard 2day,  I've had such a good day until the cravings kicked in and changed my mood,  I need to stop thinking of drugs and just have a joint and some food,

This is about a very good friend of mine who passed away before his time

Where do I start wen talking about my mate, sorry not a mate a true brother. Only difference woz we had a different father and mother. About 8 or 9 years old is wen we started being little shits, causing are adults to have mental fits. Me Steve and Phil catching pigeons from their little nan's window, feathers everywhere in her room before we'd let em go. Then it went from there to Richmond Park, Sat at the isabella plantation fishing in the dark. I remember one time ova at pem-ponds in a rubber dingy, blove the fuka pulled out the air cap thingy. I looked at him and said " I can't fukin swim" cheeky fuka just looked at me with a big grin.
Now I'm splashing in the water getting ready to drown, while Steven and Philip are still laughing and messing around. I splashed and crashed til I reached Stevens hand, jumped on his back and shouted " get me back to land ". The 3 of us always laughed and joked that I held on so tight Steven almost choked.
A few years later and we are still on good form, the next bit I tell you happened just before are boys were born. Me Steve and Butler all in Steves car, pulled up in a garage at about 12 at night, wen all of a sudden them 2 woz having a fight. I steamed right in and hit one on the chin, it's now 3 on 3 not 3 onto 2, and we did wot we had too. Which was win. Now it's all done and we are going to go, wen out of nowhere a fire eextinguisher came through the window.
Just under 10 years later and we are still on good form just like we should but maybe we'd been up to things that wernt to good. I was locked away in a prison cell for doing something wrong, wen who appears and comes walking along?  Steven Byrne is on A-wing  doing a 3 ( yrs ) that was the same sentence as me. Right off the bat we got a double cell, sometimes it was great and sometimes it was hell. But never did are brother hood faulter in 12 / 13 months together, we had each other's back's no matter what the day or the weather.
The laughs and jokes that I had with this man, this friend. My brother was laughs that I'll never get from another. I remember the last time I saw you layed at rest, my heart was thumping hard in my chest.

Love ya Steve.  Doc

Class A's mighty power! I wrote this on a day I was struggling not to score, but the cravings beat me on this day, but I'm doing better 2day

It feels like pure madness wen u sit and think about it. Your telling yourself " I don't want to do this, I'm not gonna do do it" Then at the same time your thinking and telling your self your not going to do it but you find yourself making the calls and sorting the money. All against my will for me filthy drug honey.
I'm betraying myself all by myself and that ain't good, I wish it was easier to do wot I should.
They say " Their is no might with out a little fight"
Beating and winning this fight is gonna take me all of my might, but it's as simple as this "wots right is right and your life is worth a fight. It's not just me I'm failing wen I say "fuk it I'm bailing". She is my partner who's in the same place, she don't want to use she wants to give it some space. Wen I use so does she coz thats the power of white and B. It needs to stop Now! For Her sake and mine I've gotta stay stopped some - how!  I want the same as wot she does 100 percent, it's just some times my straight Road goes a little bent. If I let her down I let myself down, which means I've let us down, and all for wot?  Some fukin white n Brown. Today I was weak and crumbled to its power, wen all I wish now is I'd waited and gave it an hour. I might of felt and dealt with it different in an hour, instead i caved into the drugs mighty power.

My dogs

Until you have had one your never know the loyalty of a dog and the love it will show.
No matter wot you do wrong or right your dog's loyalty will 4EVA stay tight.
Their is no such thing as a bad dog, A person's dog is like a small cog, the person being the bigger of the two, that's why the dog will do wot ever it's told to do. The big cog turns and the small one follows.
Their ain't bad dog's only bad owners who with out their dogs are just no good loners.
These people have no hearts, they treat and replace their dogs as if they were spare parts.
 Your dog relies on you people so treat em well