Addiction. ... Much more than just doing drugs

Addiction is much more than just doing drugs, it's trying to control your brain and switch off your addition plugs. I say plugs and not plug because addiction comes with so much more than just doing drugs. It brings negative emotions to all that use, the people who you love your sure to abuse.
While I'm using I want to be clean, then wen I'm clean I just want to use, I just seem to end up dazed and confused.
The hardest fight we ever have is one with our self's, because we know wot we are doing to our mind and physical health. Today I'm in a better place then before, I no life will get even better of that I'm sure.
So many years lost to drugs, now living with claps and hugs is still kinda strange, but with out them how else am I meant to change.