Addiction. ... Much more than just doing drugs

Addiction is much more than just doing drugs, it's trying to control your brain and switch off your addition plugs. I say plugs and not plug because addiction comes with so much more than just doing drugs. It brings negative emotions to all that use, the people who you love your sure to abuse.
While I'm using I want to be clean, then wen I'm clean I just want to use, I just seem to end up dazed and confused.
The hardest fight we ever have is one with our self's, because we know wot we are doing to our mind and physical health. Today I'm in a better place then before, I no life will get even better of that I'm sure.
So many years lost to drugs, now living with claps and hugs is still kinda strange, but with out them how else am I meant to change.

a day I will never forget. For the first time I saw the damage I was doing to my self by using drugs

   
               I REMEMBER THIS DAY.

IT was a time when I realised what I was doing to my body was a crime. Standing in the police station using their phone, while standing and waiting for the phone's tone I looked at my arms and felt very alone. Stood in a t-shirt I looked at my arms and for the first time my mind sets off alarms.
They was all swollen and red because they were the sites my drugs had been fed. The phone tone was now ringing in my ear, my heart beating because my mother's voice is what I was waiting to hear.
She picked up and spoke and as soon as she did my voice choked. Then I cried down the phone saying "mum what have I done". As always she said "don't worry I'm here for you, your my first born son and I'll always be there for you coz I'm your mum".
Now that was many years ago now and I've managed to stay away from needles for over 10 years some how.
The police arrested me that day and locked me down. If they hadn't I'd be 6ft under the ground.